another [sychological interpretation of myslef through my bday

May 20 -
You love literature and the arts and dreaming and traveling. You love attention and are constantly attracting people with your charm. People find you very stimulating intellectually.
Positive Traits: humorous, sympathetic, charming, affectionate, imaginative
Negative Traits: sarcasm, self-pity, critical, unrealistic, irrational expectations

my my my shawarma.

Help me! I'm trapped!

He got me trapped.

The villain got me trapped in a corner. A position that is impossible to escape.

He was wise. Very wise.

He knew I couldn't lunge forward and hurt him because he is my friend.

And he knew too that I couldn't move back any longer because it was already a dead end.

He didn't give me a chance to think. I couldn't just say "yes". But I couldn't say "no" either. It will sting like a little cut that bleeds but doesn't kill. And a cut that will leave a scar, for eternity.

"Can't we just try?". It's a question. But a question nonetheless that has surely changed my mind. The villain was so good. He has done the thing that others have failed to do. ASK!

He didn't lure me with sweet words like "It's free" nor tempting offers like "I'll pay you". He simply asked.

"Can't we just try, even just this day?"

DAMN THAT QUESTION! It's more mind boggling than a math problem.

"Can't we try it even just once?". Tempting. Damn that villain for asking. He surely turned my world upside down.

I don't deserve this. I never thought that someone could make me change my mind about shawarma...

my ego's are have a battle.

Ego 1: I'm too cruel to agree with that.

Ego 2: You're nice. That's why you are asked to accompany him.

Ego1: I'm too numb. I don't feel any pity or anything. Even if he loves shawarma! No exceptions!

Ego 2: Of course you are! but I'm sure you want to try it. ;)

My POV talking: I know would I regret this. I hope he would change his mind. And if he didn't... arrghhh!

But he was as stubborn as me. I compromised and said yes.

So tadah! Today was my first time in eating shawarma. I did not dare eating it before because I didn't like the smell. haha

But it wasn't as bad as I thought.

No more shawarma fears. haha

A day late

So let me get this straight Say now you loved me all along What made you hesitate to tell me with words what you really feel? I can see it in your eyes you mean all of what you say i remember so along ago, see I felt that same way Now we both have separate lives and lovers (and lovers) Insignificantly enough we both have significant others Only time will tell Time will turn and tell We are who we were when Could have been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend we are who, we are who we were when Who knew what we know now Could have been more but at least you're still my day late friend We are who, we are who we were when But thoughts they change and times they rearrange I don't know who you are anymore Loves come and go and this I know I'm not who you recall anymore But i must confess you're so much more than I remember Can't help but entertain these thoughts, thoughts of us together We are who we were when Could have been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend So let me get this straight All these years and you were no where to be found And now you want me for your own But you're a day late

* red jumpsuit apparatus

Ambivalent

I don't survive on fairy tales.

I don't soar on imaginary wings.

Life isn't a dream.

It's a fact.

Cold.

Hard.

Cruel fact.

May, your dark side is Taking It Easy

Your dark little secret is ... well, you're almost too chilled out to tell us, right? You'd rather take a long, leisurely afternoon nap than do almost anything else, and we have to admit we can hardly blame you. Things like running marathons and pulling all-nighters are best left to the people who really enjoy them, at least as far as you're concerned. You make relaxation not just a pastime but an art form.

Of course you can get things taken care of when you have to, and you're a master at getting the job done way ahead of time to leave more time for reclining and relaxing. That's what life is for — just don't sleep in too late!

A new outlook.

This should probably be taped to your bathroom mirror where one could read it everyday. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. You are special and unique.
8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.
11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

total eclipse of the heart

ma.igo man gud ko gud. I just remember someone..... especially sa part na once upon a time.....

Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart